Marlow and Kurtz
In class we are reading the Heart of Darkness and throughout the book I've develop certain feelings for the characters.
The way Marlow obsesses about Kurtz, we almost expect Kurtz to file a restraining order on the guy. (Or, we would if Kurtz weren't already half-dead by the time Marlow meets him.)But it wasn't always like that. When Marlow first hears about Kurtz, he's not "very interested in him" . But when he hears the story about Kurtz turning back to the jungle, his ears prick up he sees Kurtz for the first time" as a solitary white man among black men. And then, just a few paragraphs later, Marlow is actually excited to see the guy, saying that, for him, the journey has become entirely about meeting Kurtz. The boat, he says, "crawled towards Kurtz.
Weird. What was it about that story of Kurtz returning to the jungle that tickled Marlow's fancy? True, we've already seen that he's kind of obsessed with the jungle and its people. But at the same time he's drawn in by the wilderness, he's terrified by it. It's thrilling but horrifying, kind of like Saw XVIII. (What, they haven't made that one yet?) Kurtz has done what Marlow can only dream of: refuse to return to the luxury and comfort of Europe and choose instead to pursue fortune and glory.
But Marlow's roller coaster of love doesn't doesn't end there. Once he actually meets the guy, he starts to resent him. Africans have for Kurtz turns Marlow's stomach, "He's no idol of mine" . And then he seems to decide that Kurtz is actually just childish—a helpless and selfish man who has ignorant dreams of becoming rich and powerful.